There is a quote I heard recently, it goes: 

"If your dreams don't scare you they're not big enough."

I suppose this stuck to me since I am scared shitless right now. Seriously. Last night I bought three plane tickets, all one-way. Today I charged the largest amount I have ever put on my credit card before. And in less than three months I am leaving my family, friends and work to travel. 

There are days when I wake up excited, cursing the days between now and my departure. Then there are days when I think I have lost my wits, what am I doing? Is this a mistake? 

To pull myself back, or just keep myself from a full-blown panic attack, I remember that I have been dreaming of this since my study abroad trip in college. I have been saving for this ever since I accepted my first real job offer. (Heck, I haven't been living at home these years for nothing!) I have been planning this for years. And when I look back on my time living abroad I will know that I went for it and tried, regardless of the result.